News & Thoughts from Bisola

Not the time or the place - Mourning the passing of Chadwick Boseman 

I had only just woken from sleep Saturday morning when I had the shock of being greeted with the image of Chadwick Boseman on my Instagram feed with the message that he'd passed away in the early hours of Saturday morning.

My mind took a few moments to process this and for a while I thought perhaps it was hoax but a quick look on other news and social platforms proved the news was real. I rang a friend who I knew was a fan of his to see if she'd heard the news, she confirmed and said she'd been crying for the last few hours about it.

Wow! What an unexpected shock. Obviously Chadwick had kept his battle with cancer well hidden from the public eye all these years as there was genuine shock from all corners. That brought another level of respect for him in my mind and I guess for so many that even while he was fighting an almighty battle to be free of this horrible disease, he continued working hard at his job, he didn't make a song and dance his health condition, he just kept moving forward and tried to make the most of his life until at was all over.

The tributes from all corners of the world where amazing to read, watch and hear about. Lewis Hamilton dedicated his F1 race that day to honour Chadwick's memory. I particularly enjoyed a short clip that was going around on Twitter which was from a few years ago showing little kids dancing and celebrating in their classroom when the Black Panther movie came out. It was such a heart warming story and so were many others about Chadwick the man, his influence through movies and so on - until I saw the viral news thread about how Denzel Washington was the secret benefactor behind Chadwick's theatre school course in Oxford.

I watched the video attached to one of the viral tweets where it showed Chadwick on stage thanking Denzel for his generosity and how it obviously made a significant impact on his life. It was truly moving and I had tears in my eyes thinking what a beautiful story it was, but hours later this news article was still trending and then it got me thinking........

This actually didn't seem like the right time or place for a story like this to take centre stage. Yes it's amazing Denzel did what he did. Yes possibly because Chadwick was able to attend the course paid for by Denzel that this set off his acting career on an upward trajectory. Yes it's amazing that Denzel did this act of kindness without Chadwick or the students being aware at the time - and Yes I love Denzel Washington. But, I couldn't help wonder who thought it was a great idea to bring up this story and let it take centre stage in a moment when the full focus should've been 100% on Chadwick and HIS legacy, HIS generosity, HIS accomplishments. The story that was trending more than the news that Chadwick himself had just passed was the story of Denzel paying for Chadwick's school tuition. Errr how does this make sense under the circumstances?

I'm sure whoever started the viral thread meant well but how it became the news in place of the actual news of the person we lost (Chadwick), left me puzzled as the Saturday wore on. Knowing how private a person Denzel is traditionally, I wonder if he himself cringed when he saw that his act of generosity was trending online that day. Any other day would've been okay but something about this day when a hero to many had just fallen didn't seem like the appropriate day.

I know at the moment everyone may prefer to hear good news stories seeing this has been a crazy year, but out of respect for the dead, let their moment be THEIR moment.

Okay, okay fine, may be it's me. May be I'm a little too sensitive. Maybe I'm making a mountain out of a molehill. Maybe. However I do think there's a right time and place for everything so waking up the next morning to still see the same thread trending on my Twitter feed forced me to write about it to let off some steam and to find out if any one thinks the same or may be they can help me see this in a different light!

Over to you. 


Breathe - The Story Behind the Song 

I have a story behind all my songs - Where I was when I wrote it? What I was thinking? How I was feeling? What emotion I was trying to convey? of course there's a story behind my new track 'Breathe' Ha!

So Breathe is all about overcoming adversity and breaking free of the hold that fear and life's challenges can sometimes throw at you. I used to suffer badly from Claustrophobia up until a few years ago. Being in enclosed spaces would sometimes set me off in panic attacks - this meant travelling on the London underground or being on an airplane could be a nightmare experiences for me.

I knew it was all in my head but it didn't stop me feeling the way I did. I was sure people would think I was absolutely nuts for feeling this way so I kept it to myself and suffered in silence for years. Have you ever struggled with situations in life where you feel you're fighting an uphill battle, you're all alone and you can't see a way out? Well that's the story of verse 1 of 'Breathe' in a nutshell.

Verse 2 focuses on the fact that we've been living life at 1,000,000,000 miles an hour for ages and then suddenly the Corona pandemic hits and almost everything suddenly grinds to a screeching halt. The pandemic has been tough for many people and my heart goes out to those who have been hit hard. That said one good thing that the lockdown has done is that it's forced many of us to slow down, reflect, take the time to be more present and appreciate life and the people around us. 

Life can be so much more meaningful and fuller if we take this more relaxed approach to life. You only live once and when it's over it's not the size of your house, car, money in the bank that'll truly matter. Does this strike a chord with you? Or is this too much deep thinking? 


Anyway on to the bridge: Yay! This is my absolute favourite part of 'Breathe'. It's about the joy of breaking free of fear and the lies your mind can sometimes feed on to take you off track. I have to say in my case, it wasn't like I had this moment when suddenly everything became ok in my life (in reference to the Claustrophobia experience), but I realised that I had to keep moving forward and not let the negative stuff put my life on hold. It was about 'feeling the fear but doing it anyway' as they say......and I guess that's what faith is about. Faith is not the absence of fear, it's about not letting fear, life's challenges (insert your issue here), stop you from living. It's knowing that no matter whatever difficult stuff you're going through, you're never alone. God is with you every step of the way and somehow you're going to make it - even if it doesn't look or feel like it.


So I snuck in a 3rd verse after the bridge which you don't find in many contemporary songs these days but I just had so much to say! 2 verses and bridge just didn't cut it!!! Also I think it just added that extra touch to raise our eyes up a level. Verse 3 is about us elevating ourselves to do better and be better. I believe we all have a purpose for why we've been put on this earth so let's strive to make every day count and be a force for good wherever we are. As the song says 'Let's join forces and break down those walls that hold us back from being the best of us' (paraphrased)

So what's the conclusion of the matter? What's this song ultimately about? 
Well I think the chorus sums it up best: Break free of those things that have held you back in life. Through faith and love let's tear up the old rule book and let the new, better way take it's place. Take a deep, deep breath in, then breathe out and go start living and being the truly special person you were created to be!!

Hope this inspires someone out there!

Click below to enjoy the music video with the lyrics or hop on over to my home page where all the options to stream/download the track on Spotify, iTunes etc is available.